Love and blessings

I am back from Mexico with a new chapter of my life, ready to start, 100%!!  So many things to look forward to...love and blessings. New found clarity that has forever changed my world, more than just foster care. I have opened up my heart to be loved!  More to come on that topic.

I have received the list of items missing from the CPA and so I have gone through those just now to complete and sign off on.  Emotions are flooding in as I read agreement statements about Do's and Don'ts to do to/with a foster kid.  Some of the stuff blows my mind!  Like, do they really have to tell us to NOT do those things!  Some people should really be ashamed of themselves.  I understand we all have our issues, we are all broken in some capacity and that is how we tend to treat our children.  I can't even fathom the things these babies go through.  I am so looking forward to showing them the love and affection they so much deserve!  The tears I am experiencing right now are tears of joy and sadness.  Sadness because these kids have been through so much, sadness because there are foster parents out there that completely fail the system and the kiddos but utmost joy because I can be a difference and show them love, no matter if they want it or not.

I have signed off on the Mandatory Reporter Agreement also...Officially if I witness anything like what makes us all cringe, being neglected or abused in any way or hear of children trying to hurt themselves, I am required to report that to DHS or law enforcement.  So if you see something and don't want to report it..tell me, so that I will be required to!  Happy to!

I signed a waiver agreeing to not share any personal information or photos on social media so please understand if I don't pass anything on to you.  Just continue to pray.

My heart has expanded so much over the last year and this journey has opened me up to so much love and blessings.  I am looking forward to the journey and sharing all of it with you.  Stay tuned for scheduled home visit/interview and inspection.

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