My single Mom foster journey

I went to the foster support group again yesterday..that was the 3rd time I have attended.  On one hand I love and appreciate the group, I get to hear real stuff that is going on with other foster/adoptive parents. On the other hand it is hard to hear mostly bad stuff.  We go around the room and talk about "good, bad and weird" stories.  Yesterday it felt like it was all negative. One gal is really struggling with her foster kids and doesn't have anything good to say about them.  That is tough for me to listen to.  I hear you, it is hard and they are a struggle, but can you try...TRY to see something positive in the situation.   But then again, this is the space to vent about it. I have no clue what is going on in that home so I can't judge, it is just hard for me in any situation to listen to negativity.  I thought to myself, aren't most of these kids sent to us with issues that we need to help them with, walk alongside them, TRY our hardest to b...

So in the past 10 days all the stuff that Bethany sent over to complete is complete.  There were a couple more forms that they required so I am working on those now.  One is a Child Care Plan, of which I have no clue where to start.  My schedule is such that I don't need a full time sitter, just a drop in from time to time.  So I will be on the hunt for that ASAP.  I was planning to get a Lifetime gym membership because I would get 2 hours of childcare a day but of course if I need a sitter for a few hours here and there, that is where I need to find someone that not only I trust, but that the state trusts as well.  The other form is The House Rules, I laughed because I don't even have rules and that isn't something I even thought of!  So we brought out the notepad and got started on that.  When I say we..ok back up to the last post, remember when I said my heart had been opened?  Well there is a bit of a love story to share here..I have thi...

I am back from Mexico with a new chapter of my life, ready to start, 100%!!  So many things to look forward to...love and blessings. New found clarity that has forever changed my world, more than just foster care. I have opened up my heart to be loved!  More to come on that topic. I have received the list of items missing from the CPA and so I have gone through those just now to complete and sign off on.  Emotions are flooding in as I read agreement statements about Do's and Don'ts to do to/with a foster kid.  Some of the stuff blows my mind!  Like, do they really have to tell us to NOT do those things!  Some people should really be ashamed of themselves.  I understand we all have our issues, we are all broken in some capacity and that is how we tend to treat our children.  I can't even fathom the things these babies go through.  I am so looking forward to showing them the love and affection they so much deserve!  The tears I am experi...

So I finished the CPR/First Aid class this week.  I am glad to have that knowledge in my brain and the class done for 2 years.  Though I think that is something that should be done once a year. If you don't use the knowledge and skills on a regular basis, how likely are you to remember it?   The place that I did the course, Cool Compressions, said I could come back anytime in the next 2 years to sit in on a class for free as a refresher, great idea!  So, now I wait to get the certification in my email lol...always waiting!  I am learning patience here. 3 people in a matter of 18 hours asked how I was doing with the process.  Not, how is the process going or where in the process are you..but how am I doing.  Well I hadn't even thought of that for a while so I was so appreciative for the question.  I got so emotional thinking about it and even talking about it I got choked up.  I have done so much emotional work over the last few years a...