Just an update

Just wanting to write a quick update so there isn't so much to write after the holidays.  After my last post, s*^& got real here with us!  That week was the hardest week for her and I emotionally.  It was centered around her sadness about her birthday (I have to believe that is truth).  To protect her, I won't give the details but without the amazing social worker in my life, I was at the end of my rope.  I am in search of a foster parent specific counselor for me to start going to, I have made an appointment with a psychiatrist for her to start going to and reevaluate some things for her, she is in respite care (certified babysitter for foster parents) this weekend so I can have some down time and I am attempting to plan a couple things here and there for myself and for both her and I to help keep us going. 

Since that tough week, she has been good emotionally for the most part.  We experience a few good weeks then a horrible week so the roller coaster is no joke. I am so thankful for the selfless, patient and loving people in my life. 

Work has gotten busier, oddly enough for this time of year, but that is a nice distraction because I absolutely love what I do.  The market is tough right now but it keeps me busy and I love helping my clients.

As we approach Christmas we have a lot of plans to keep us busy.  We get to go to dinner downtown and a Mammoth game next weekend, Botanical Gardens Christmas Eve, stop by to see friends and then a movie on Christmas day, then off to see my Dad New Years Day!  Not to mention she only has 4 more days of school before a long break (Lord help me lol).  So I am hopeful that the rest of the season will be good for us both. 

Wishing you all a wonderful Christmas and New Years!!!

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