Moving forward

Well I finally got my paperwork back from P127, approved with a couple things missing.  Yahooooo! That was such a rush to get that in the mail on Monday.  I squeeked with joy!  LOL 

Also within the same day the decision to trade in my car to get something more realistic for a child, car seat and such was made final.  I know what you might be thinking...sounds like a "real world problem".  Well kinda!  I had a little car that barely fit 2 people in it, let alone car seat, kid stuff.  If the child, dogs and I ever wanted to go on a road trip, forget it...we would be packed like sardines.  So I made the jump! 

Let me tell you how emotional that was for me though. When I found the car I had in mind, I cried the whole way home from the dealership and was a complete emotional mess for the next 24 hours.  I had to process a few things.

The old 4runner that I have, symbolized the struggling Realtor that I was, but that car was something I really wanted so I worked for it.  Then years later I bought the Lexus, which symbolized that I had made something of my career, I was no longer struggling.  I loved that car and getting rid of it came with a set of emotions that I was not expecting.  The new 4Runner symbolizes for me, a lot of growth, stability in life, my career and becoming a foster Mom.  Ultimately it was saying goodbye to a peice of me that was no longer.  That was scary but you know what...I did it. LOL  Again...some of you may be rolling your eyes but that was for real for me.

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