Just waiting

Nothing really to update...I was put on the call list the 6th and here I wait.  I am not sure what you all have experienced in life up to now, but the anticipation and the emotions of the unknown right now are surreal.  Everytime I sit on the couch in silence, take a walk with the dogs, sleep in (which in my world is like 7am), I think to myself...I had better enjoy this while it lasts.  A part of me is so nervous to give up the life that consists of taking care of me, my needs and the needs of animals.  But a greater part of me is so excited to be a part of something much much bigger.  To help the life of someone that truly needs my help.  Whether that is for a short time, extended time or forever, what an absolute blessing!!  ACK!!!!!!

A few weeks ago, a few close friends came together to show me their love, support and to bring me some stuff that will be helpful in the childs first 24 hours in my home.  I couldn't be more grateful for the support that surrounds me on a daily basis.  I then went to a Just Between Friends sale and stocked up on more stuff..lol, I am really as ready as I ever will be.  Sooo I wait. 

Everytime the phone rings, I think to myself..."do I take the risk and answer, hoping it's not another spam call".  So I have been answering them all, within reason.  Some of you have texted me to tell me you are thinking of me and I sooo appreciate that, please keep it up and know that more involved updates will come soon!! 
xoxo

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